Do you ever know anyone who is so depressed about life? A person who has had a lot of bad things happen to him and just can't get past them? I feel so bad for this person that I'm thinking of. I don't even know what to say about the situation because I don't know what to feel about it. I'm worried about him because I don't know if he'll ever let go of his doubt. I don't know if he'll ever just relax.
Sure, relaxing is harder than it seems. I'm definately not the person to be pushing a stress-free life... but, I'm just so worried about him.
I think his biggest struggle is this desire to find someone, a girlfriend, a wife. Finding someone isn't as easy as finding just anyone you can stand. I've seen too many people fall into these relationships just because it was the right time. It is ridiculous to just get married or engaged after knowing this person for a month. There is more to a relationship than just love. Love doesn't conquer all... as sad as it sounds love isn't enough. There is so much more... though love is a big portion.
I guess I'm at the point of my life where I could say that I could find a misleading kind of love in anyone if I had enough time. I think the love that I have with Erick is more than the love I had with Ben because of everything else that comes with it. Its not just the butterflies I have in my stomach... its everything else to.
I guess love is hard to explain. There are too many version of it... and they are always mistaken for one.
Who knows where I'm going with this blog. I guess I just don't want to see him fill this void in his heart and soul with a girl.
I guess I'm a big believer of a spouse not fullfiling a person... I was fullfilled before I met Erick, but with Erick, I am more complete. I truly feel that with Erick, I can do more for God than I could do without him. But, if I had never met Erick... I suppose I would still live a fullfilling life... though, I would never give Erick away now.
Anyway... like I said, it is all very confusing. I think I'm done, for now.
My room is flooded... and the stupid people haven't come to clean it up. I don't know what I'll do when Erick gets here... considering that there is no way of walking... just sitting on the bed and the chair. That's it. I think I'll take a nap until he gets her.
Until later... goodbye
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