Into marvelous light I am running
Out of darkness out of shame

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God has blessed me with the most amazing people. Though some of them may hurt me... they maybe flakey and self-absorbed. The rest of them, even my newer friends from the past year... are amazing. They accept that I am human. They can help me through them. Maybe, we have become closer by not living with each other, but I hung out with Stephanie and Victoria last night and I have to say that I haven't laughed like that in days. They are amazing women. I admire them.

I'm kind of depressed... and have been the past few days. It is hard to really get into the details. There are too many people that have broken my trust in the past few years. I wouldn't say that my trust is hard to earn... but, this person broke my heart. I feel a lack of connection with this person now. It is hard for me to see a distant future... It is hard for me to see what will happen next because of the things that this person decided to do.
What is different this time? Why have I blindly followed you all these years? I feel stupid... I know its my fault for believing and trusting... but really it sucks!

Bright Spring Morning

Suburban Legends - Bright Spring Morning - The piano version is the best
The time is right to begin
Let’s get going once again
For once in your life just let go
I’m getting sick of everything
Tired of what the next day brings
What I need is for you to follow my lead

The sun is shinning bright outside
I think I’ll go for a ride
I plan not to ever return
Let’s run away from here for good
Forget this dusty neighborhood
The open road is calling and begging for us

Go roll down the window
Go crank up that radio
Let’s drive until we hit the sky
It’s not about where we go
Let’s start living life before we die

If you want you can stay
But you’ll regret the day
That you didn’t follow your dreams
Imagine the wind in your hair
Blowing away all of your cares
So take my hand lets plan never to look back.

The sun is shinning bright outside
I think I’ll go for a ride
I plan not to ever return
Let’s run away from here for good
Forget this dusty neighborhood
The open road is calling and begging for us

[3x]
Go roll down the window
Go crank up that radio
Let’s drive until we hit the sky
It’s not about where we will go
Let’s start living life before we die

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I'm trapped in a little room... waiting for Erick to finish his class. Stupid gas prices... I wouldn't have had to come to school with him other wise. We are going on a much needed date tonight. I love our friends, but sometimes we hang out with them too much and we never get some time to ourselves. You know, I think I've seen Ben every single day this week... which is awesome because I love Ben, but we just need a momment. Its cool too because we are going to have a huge beach trip tomorrow... complete with bon fire and everything! We are leaving at 8 if anyone is interested.
Other than that, tonight is going to be fun. I brought something nice to wear... well semi nice... mostly its just NOT a tee shirt like I usually wear. I'm hoping we can go to Alcatraz Brewing Co. but, as of now we have decided to go to Market Broiler... but, that was before I researched what was at the block. Tu Tu Tango is good too... but, we ate there before, and we could always go to Dave and Busters... but, I think we go there too much to have it be cutesies!
So anyway... I'm crossing my fingers for Alcatraz... but, I won't be disappointed if we have market broiler. That place is "tight" :) Plus, I eat there food all the time since the same place that does their food, does the food for Harvest Cafe and my school's cafeteria!! What kind of craziness does that sound like!! I wonder if other schools have this kind of food too?
any way... I'm done for now... just 20 more minutes and I'm out of here! :)

Its the summer... can you believe it? Its going alright. I still need to find a job. I need to find the chance to go out and look for one. I'll probably pick up some applications tonight... after Erick takes a nap.
One question that is on my mind. What would a 23 year old want with an 18 year old? Doesn't that sound a little fishy? Well, it does for me.

Any way... I'm done! :D

I'll be back later. I just don't have anything to say today.

USC

I completely forgot to say! My roommate Maydelle isn't coming back next semester because she got into the USC film program... and even better she is in the film producing/direction/cinema and television one! Its so exciting!!

Davy Jones, I

I'm done with class... as of yesterday. It is solemn... but, inevitable. What to do with my summer... I've applied to several jobs as receptionists/clerical... with my 65+wpm plus being a senior in college... I do believe I am a sho-in... There are a few in particular that I really really want which are at the Riverside Superior Court... I would like to get into being an anaylist there when I graduate. The Heritage House is hiring interns... but, that's not paid... and I'm leaning toward not wanting to be a teacher right away. Number one, I can't really afford to get my credentials right away. And secondly, I'm starting to realize that I have a greater interest in politics. I think really, I was made to be a mother... not a working mother, but a mother. Obviously, I'm not going to do that right away and that its good that I will have my bachelors degree... but, I'm hoping that in the end, I'll be able to be a stay at home mom for at least the first few years of my babies lives. I know it really made a difference in my life that my mom was there for me. Its a hard job... but, I can't expect someone else to raise my kids. That is ridiculous. That is what is wrong with the school systems today in the first place!!

Anyway... I'm looking forward to working this summer... Hopefully I can get hired soon. I applied to a bunch of jobs... I'll probably call them on Thursday when I am completely moved out and in. :)