As I look into the stars
Pondering how far away they are
How You hold them in Your hands
And still You know this man
You know my inner most being, oh
Even better than I know, than I know myself
What a beautiful God
What a beautiful God
And what am I, that I might be called Your child
What am I, what am I
That You might know me, my King
What am I, what am I, what am I
As I look off into the distance
Watching the sun roll on by
Beautiful colors all around me, oh
Painted all over the sky
The same hands that created all of this
They created you and I
What a beautiful God
What a beautiful God
And what am I, that I might be called Your child
What am I, what am I
That You might know me, my King
What am I, what am I
That You might die, that I might live
What am I, what am I, what am I, what am I
What am I
What am I
What am I
What am I
What am I
Friday, July 10, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
In name of the Special Elections!
And they want to raise our taxes? The nation should take an example of California and realize that this is what will happen if our country becomes a welfare state.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Film Blog... :)
For those of you who are interested... I've started a blog about my film ideas. They are a little fleeting... It is hard for me sometimes to explain in depth the ideas that I am having. I tried to make them as clear as I can and I will expand more as the blogs go on.
These blogs will probably take a week or so to write. I have begun a couple of them and I'm working on them as we speak. They are more like little essays. so stay tuned... don't spread the word until the blog becomes a little more steady...
http://historybuffette.blogspot.com/
These blogs will probably take a week or so to write. I have begun a couple of them and I'm working on them as we speak. They are more like little essays. so stay tuned... don't spread the word until the blog becomes a little more steady...
http://historybuffette.blogspot.com/
Who does well under pressure?
Crazy Pelosi... You remind me of Erick when he is lying. He starts to smile and laugh... She couldn't handle torture... she can't even handle calm questioning.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
"I'm almost young or so I'm told"
I haven't been blogging that much. I actually keep starting these highly political thought blogs and never finish them. My thoughts take too much time to explain. I think that's why I keep them to myself. They can be proven, but they are a little more abstract and again, need a moment to explain.
I have a lot of ideas about what is going on and what is going to happen. Its scary the time we live in. We'll see. Any way... I really just came on to post a song that I love.
As many of you know, I live my life through music. I have songs that remind me of certain eras of my life. Good Riddance reminds me of 7th grade and my first real boyfriend who died. It reminds me of my first kiss and a lot of my early memories. And mostly, it reminds me that people change and things happen.
Lately, I've been in love with acoustic music namely by these AMAZING unsigned artists Bobby Long and Marcus Foster. I couldn't find a site with lyrics, even though they are up and coming. At least I think so... :)
so here is a youtube video :)
This might be stupid. But, I really feel like I'm going through a quarter life crisis. I know a lot of people go through it after they graduate. Its difficult to live the dream when things are falling apart around you. I'm remaining optimistic. It helps to have people around me that love me. I hope things get better. I'm not depressed or anything. I'm just tired of being in waiting.
I have a lot of ideas about what is going on and what is going to happen. Its scary the time we live in. We'll see. Any way... I really just came on to post a song that I love.
As many of you know, I live my life through music. I have songs that remind me of certain eras of my life. Good Riddance reminds me of 7th grade and my first real boyfriend who died. It reminds me of my first kiss and a lot of my early memories. And mostly, it reminds me that people change and things happen.
Lately, I've been in love with acoustic music namely by these AMAZING unsigned artists Bobby Long and Marcus Foster. I couldn't find a site with lyrics, even though they are up and coming. At least I think so... :)
so here is a youtube video :)
This might be stupid. But, I really feel like I'm going through a quarter life crisis. I know a lot of people go through it after they graduate. Its difficult to live the dream when things are falling apart around you. I'm remaining optimistic. It helps to have people around me that love me. I hope things get better. I'm not depressed or anything. I'm just tired of being in waiting.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
The most beautiful song I've ever heard.
World Without End - Five Iron Frenzy
For all the deepest thoughts compiled,
philosophy to laws of physics,
no one's ever heard or seen,
a more beautiful thing,
than this love that saved us.
Chorus:
In the soundless awe and wonder,
words fall short to hope again.
How beautiful,
how vast your love is,
new forever,
world without an end.
The very spark that burns the stars,
drew near to me today,
the God of everything that is,
whispered in my ear that His love is boundless.
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Now playing: Five Iron Frenzy - World Without End
via FoxyTunes
For all the deepest thoughts compiled,
philosophy to laws of physics,
no one's ever heard or seen,
a more beautiful thing,
than this love that saved us.
Chorus:
In the soundless awe and wonder,
words fall short to hope again.
How beautiful,
how vast your love is,
new forever,
world without an end.
The very spark that burns the stars,
drew near to me today,
the God of everything that is,
whispered in my ear that His love is boundless.
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Now playing: Five Iron Frenzy - World Without End
via FoxyTunes
Saturday, April 04, 2009
In the issue of marriage, I don't really see how it came about that the Government is allowed to say who is married and who is not in the first place.
I think it should stay out of my marriage.
With this said, Erick and I both think what would be best would be to allow the government to announce all marriages as civil unions, and give the power of marriage back to God and the church.
What is it the State's business to tell me who and where and when and blah blah?
This is just a fleeting thought. I haven't had any dissent on this thought, so I'm not sure how it would work in actual practice. But, I like a lot of ideas that keep the government out of my life. Marriage should begin with God.
That's all that matters.
I think it should stay out of my marriage.
With this said, Erick and I both think what would be best would be to allow the government to announce all marriages as civil unions, and give the power of marriage back to God and the church.
What is it the State's business to tell me who and where and when and blah blah?
This is just a fleeting thought. I haven't had any dissent on this thought, so I'm not sure how it would work in actual practice. But, I like a lot of ideas that keep the government out of my life. Marriage should begin with God.
That's all that matters.
Friday, April 03, 2009
Cyber Security Act of 2009
A couple of days ago, the Obama Administration submitted a bill proposal to an executive office which would give Obama (or any president) the power to shut down the internet in a time of need.
I really can't think of any situation where the internet would need to be completely shut down. I understand that sometimes in times of war, freedom of speech is limited and the president has the power to declare that, but by shutting down the internet, you are limiting all speech.
Not only would you be limiting speech, but you would be limiting education.
It makes you think... how would Big Brother have limited free though in a time with internet? It would be impossible to have them coexist. It is the same reason why Communist China censors almost all internet activity. I remember a friend I knew when there for the olympics and she couldn't even write God in an email to me. she had to speak in code.
Is that what is next for America? Things come in small portion, but soon we will lose our freedoms completely and we won't even know it happened until its gone. And I haven't even talked about what happened at the G20 this week. We are losing our sovereignty. And we are just letting it happen.
We don't have the numbers in congress, but the grassroots are growing. It is time for you to find a place and speak out against the terrible events.
I really can't think of any situation where the internet would need to be completely shut down. I understand that sometimes in times of war, freedom of speech is limited and the president has the power to declare that, but by shutting down the internet, you are limiting all speech.
Not only would you be limiting speech, but you would be limiting education.
It makes you think... how would Big Brother have limited free though in a time with internet? It would be impossible to have them coexist. It is the same reason why Communist China censors almost all internet activity. I remember a friend I knew when there for the olympics and she couldn't even write God in an email to me. she had to speak in code.
Is that what is next for America? Things come in small portion, but soon we will lose our freedoms completely and we won't even know it happened until its gone. And I haven't even talked about what happened at the G20 this week. We are losing our sovereignty. And we are just letting it happen.
We don't have the numbers in congress, but the grassroots are growing. It is time for you to find a place and speak out against the terrible events.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Just a jumbled thought... don't pay attention to it. Seriously
In my mind, there are several key aspects in the determination of the representation of current culture with in movies. The two largest characteristics are the strength (or nonexistent strength) of the hero and the ultimate conclusion of the movie. Firstly, how does the main character react to opposition? Is he hesitant? Does he struggle with his own demons? Does he fight balls out? who is this main character, is he a bad guy or a good guy? Is he a natural born leader? Or is he merely the hero because of the lack of better choices? Today, there have been a rise of superheroes with issues. Just like in previous times of unrest, modern films represent a struggle. They often deal with shades of gray and straddle the line between good and evil. Many don't know the answer and do not ever succeed in finding a solution.
Without dabling too far into these ideas, the second is the final conclusion. How did the movie end? Did it present an answer to the problem? Does the main character die? Was his death heroic or a desperate act with no hope for success?
With all this said, there were several things I did not like about The Knowing. Despite my love for apocolypic films, this one represented an aspect of todays culture I was hoping wasn't coming. Not only did it completely remove God and attempt to solve todays questions with another theory, but it answered the solution with the idea that there was no point in fighting. There was no point in fighting for freedom or life because only death was in our path.
What bothered me even more was the refusal of these aliens to save more of the population. Where they saying that we weren't worth saving? If that is the case, why didn't the movie have the world die by our own means? Instead, the world died by something that was not our cause. I'm not sure if I could stretch it to the fears of global warming or not, but in this case, earth's tempature increased because of flares, not because of over population and over consumption.
Again, there is no point in life because life can cease to exist. I don't find the idea of two small children living on a distant planet a very optimistic point of view.
So what does this say about our modern era? It is hard to say the direction this nation is turning. The Obama administration has quadrupled our debt in a matter of months, signed legislation to tax 90% of wages singling out key groups of people, ordered the eventual end of military defenses, promised the nation programs this nation cannot efford, negotiated with countries that do not have our best interest, and a clear idea of taking away our personal freedoms in exchange for "protection".
Movies declare a struggle to succeed between heroes and villians. On top of this, heroes and villians show blured lines and gray areas in characteristics.
It is very hard for me to remain silient (or complacent) and let our nation dwindle out as a 1st worldd power. I am not okay with this depiction. I like happy endings. I like it when the girl and the guy skip off into the sunset.
I think I'm rambling. I'm jumping subjects. Its partially because I've been twitter and converse with some of my conservative friends about what I think about this movie in particular.
I did not like The Knowing. It represents something that I believe is mortally wrong, and I haven't even began to talk about what I think about the idea that aliens planted the first humans.
Without dabling too far into these ideas, the second is the final conclusion. How did the movie end? Did it present an answer to the problem? Does the main character die? Was his death heroic or a desperate act with no hope for success?
With all this said, there were several things I did not like about The Knowing. Despite my love for apocolypic films, this one represented an aspect of todays culture I was hoping wasn't coming. Not only did it completely remove God and attempt to solve todays questions with another theory, but it answered the solution with the idea that there was no point in fighting. There was no point in fighting for freedom or life because only death was in our path.
What bothered me even more was the refusal of these aliens to save more of the population. Where they saying that we weren't worth saving? If that is the case, why didn't the movie have the world die by our own means? Instead, the world died by something that was not our cause. I'm not sure if I could stretch it to the fears of global warming or not, but in this case, earth's tempature increased because of flares, not because of over population and over consumption.
Again, there is no point in life because life can cease to exist. I don't find the idea of two small children living on a distant planet a very optimistic point of view.
So what does this say about our modern era? It is hard to say the direction this nation is turning. The Obama administration has quadrupled our debt in a matter of months, signed legislation to tax 90% of wages singling out key groups of people, ordered the eventual end of military defenses, promised the nation programs this nation cannot efford, negotiated with countries that do not have our best interest, and a clear idea of taking away our personal freedoms in exchange for "protection".
Movies declare a struggle to succeed between heroes and villians. On top of this, heroes and villians show blured lines and gray areas in characteristics.
It is very hard for me to remain silient (or complacent) and let our nation dwindle out as a 1st worldd power. I am not okay with this depiction. I like happy endings. I like it when the girl and the guy skip off into the sunset.
I think I'm rambling. I'm jumping subjects. Its partially because I've been twitter and converse with some of my conservative friends about what I think about this movie in particular.
I did not like The Knowing. It represents something that I believe is mortally wrong, and I haven't even began to talk about what I think about the idea that aliens planted the first humans.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Decided to do this again now that I have a larger itunes and I'm not using Erick's music
1.Put your iTunes/ipod on shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag friends who might enjoy doing the same as well as the person you got the note from.
1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY...
Day In, Day Out by Streetlight Manifesto
2) WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Little Man by The O.C. Supertones
3) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Trendy by Reel Big Fish (I don't think so?)
4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
There Was Another Time by Relient K
5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
A New Hope by Five Iron Frenzy
6) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
That Joke Isn't Funny Anymore by The Smiths (haha)
7) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
You Can't Handle This by Five Iron Frenzy (hilarious)
8) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Ramblings of a Beggar by Shawn McDonald
9) WHAT IS 2+2?
Dark Days by The Used
10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I'm Her Man by Reel Big Fish
11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Build God, Than We'll Talk by Panic! At the Disco
12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
These are Not My Pants (the Rock Opera One) by Five Iron Frenzy
13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Unknown by The Supertones
14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
My Girlfriend by Relient K
15) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I'm Gettin' Nuttin' for Christmas by Relient K
16) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Monsters by Matchbook Romance (haha I don't think Erick would let us)
17) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
These Rocks have Energy by MU330
18) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Every New Day by Five Iron Frenzy
19) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
On and On and On by Streetlight Manifesto
20) WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
That's Alright by Tyler Hilton
22) WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
The Controller by The Aquabats
23) WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Cupids Chokehold by Gym Class Heroes
24) WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Make Damn Sure by Taking Back Sunday
25) WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Camisado by Panic! At The Disco (I'm not sure what that means)
26) WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
White Tooth Man by Iron & Wine
27) DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Lights Out by Danity Kane
29) WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Screams in the Night by Five Iron Frenzy
30) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Full Moon by The Black Ghosts
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag friends who might enjoy doing the same as well as the person you got the note from.
1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY...
Day In, Day Out by Streetlight Manifesto
2) WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Little Man by The O.C. Supertones
3) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Trendy by Reel Big Fish (I don't think so?)
4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
There Was Another Time by Relient K
5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
A New Hope by Five Iron Frenzy
6) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
That Joke Isn't Funny Anymore by The Smiths (haha)
7) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
You Can't Handle This by Five Iron Frenzy (hilarious)
8) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Ramblings of a Beggar by Shawn McDonald
9) WHAT IS 2+2?
Dark Days by The Used
10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I'm Her Man by Reel Big Fish
11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Build God, Than We'll Talk by Panic! At the Disco
12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
These are Not My Pants (the Rock Opera One) by Five Iron Frenzy
13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Unknown by The Supertones
14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
My Girlfriend by Relient K
15) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I'm Gettin' Nuttin' for Christmas by Relient K
16) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Monsters by Matchbook Romance (haha I don't think Erick would let us)
17) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
These Rocks have Energy by MU330
18) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Every New Day by Five Iron Frenzy
19) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
On and On and On by Streetlight Manifesto
20) WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
That's Alright by Tyler Hilton
22) WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
The Controller by The Aquabats
23) WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Cupids Chokehold by Gym Class Heroes
24) WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Make Damn Sure by Taking Back Sunday
25) WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Camisado by Panic! At The Disco (I'm not sure what that means)
26) WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
White Tooth Man by Iron & Wine
27) DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Lights Out by Danity Kane
29) WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Screams in the Night by Five Iron Frenzy
30) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Full Moon by The Black Ghosts
Listening to some beautiful music lately:
The sad thing is that neither of the 3 people I'm in love with currently have CDs. Their music is beautiful and emotional and full of passion. Some how I got a hold of a bunch of live mp3s. They are so beautiful. I wish I could play guitar and write songs like they do. :)
For those of you who read my Senior Thesis, you know I'm interested in how domestic and international policy effect shape film. I've been wondering lately how film has been effected by our current events. We will have to wait and see how the Obama presidency will effect it, but we can clearly see an instability in some of our super hero films. They aren't perfect. They have internal struggles with what is right and wrong. I've been dying to start a blog, historical and conservative. I hadn't really had an idea before today what to do with it. Film history is my specialty. Once you get me started... I never shut up. Just thinking out loud at this preliminary point. I'm not sure if I have that much time to dedicate to a blog. Busy busy!
Thursday, March 05, 2009
V for Vendetta
"Good evening, London. Allow me first to apologize for this interruption. I do, like many of you, appreciate the comforts of the everyday routine, the security of the familiar, the tranquility of repetition. I enjoy them as much as any bloke. But in the spirit of commemoration - whereby those important events of the past, usually associated with someone's death or the end of some awful bloody struggle, are celebrated with a nice holiday - I thought we could mark this November the fifth, a day that is sadly no longer remembered, by taking some time out of our daily lives to sit down and have a little chat.
There are, of course, those who do not want us to speak. I suspect even now orders are being shouted into telephones and men with guns will soon be on their way. Why? Because while the truncheon may be used in lieu of conversation, words will always retain their power. Words offer the means to meaning and for those who will listen, the enunciation of truth. And the truth is, there is something terribly wrong with this country, isn't there?
Cruelty and injustice...intolerance and oppression. And where once you had the freedom to object, to think and speak as you saw fit, you now have censors and systems of surveillance, coercing your conformity and soliciting your submission. How did this happen? Who's to blame? Well certainly there are those who are more responsible than others, and they will be held accountable. But again, truth be told...if you're looking for the guilty, you need only look into a mirror.
I know why you did it. I know you were afraid. Who wouldn't be? War. Terror. Disease. There were a myriad of problems which conspired to corrupt your reason and rob you of your common sense. Fear got the best of you and in your panic, you turned to the now High Chancellor Adam Sutler. He promised you order. He promised you peace. And all he demanded in return was your silent, obedient consent.
Last night, I sought to end that silence. Last night, I destroyed the Old Bailey to remind this country of what it has forgotten. More than four hundred years ago, a great citizen wished to embed the fifth of November forever in our memory. His hope was to remind the world that fairness, justice and freedom are more than words - they are perspectives. So if you've seen nothing, if the crimes of this government remain unknown to you, then I would suggest that you allow the fifth of November to pass unmarked. But if you see what I see, if you feel as I feel, and if you would seek as I seek...then I ask you to stand beside me, one year from tonight, outside the gates of Parliament. And together, we shall give them a fifth of November that shall never, ever, be forgot!"
Obviously... I'm very bitter about the direction our great nation is taking. Its not this dramatic, but does anyone else notice that we are slowly being striped of our freedoms?
There are, of course, those who do not want us to speak. I suspect even now orders are being shouted into telephones and men with guns will soon be on their way. Why? Because while the truncheon may be used in lieu of conversation, words will always retain their power. Words offer the means to meaning and for those who will listen, the enunciation of truth. And the truth is, there is something terribly wrong with this country, isn't there?
Cruelty and injustice...intolerance and oppression. And where once you had the freedom to object, to think and speak as you saw fit, you now have censors and systems of surveillance, coercing your conformity and soliciting your submission. How did this happen? Who's to blame? Well certainly there are those who are more responsible than others, and they will be held accountable. But again, truth be told...if you're looking for the guilty, you need only look into a mirror.
I know why you did it. I know you were afraid. Who wouldn't be? War. Terror. Disease. There were a myriad of problems which conspired to corrupt your reason and rob you of your common sense. Fear got the best of you and in your panic, you turned to the now High Chancellor Adam Sutler. He promised you order. He promised you peace. And all he demanded in return was your silent, obedient consent.
Last night, I sought to end that silence. Last night, I destroyed the Old Bailey to remind this country of what it has forgotten. More than four hundred years ago, a great citizen wished to embed the fifth of November forever in our memory. His hope was to remind the world that fairness, justice and freedom are more than words - they are perspectives. So if you've seen nothing, if the crimes of this government remain unknown to you, then I would suggest that you allow the fifth of November to pass unmarked. But if you see what I see, if you feel as I feel, and if you would seek as I seek...then I ask you to stand beside me, one year from tonight, outside the gates of Parliament. And together, we shall give them a fifth of November that shall never, ever, be forgot!"
Obviously... I'm very bitter about the direction our great nation is taking. Its not this dramatic, but does anyone else notice that we are slowly being striped of our freedoms?
Not too much to talk about... I'm just chilling. Twittering. One of the cool things that I've been totally sucked into. It is nice being updated all day with news. I feel chalk full of knowledge.
I encourage everyone to give it a whirl... and also to download the app for your phone. And, to download Loopt if you are bored. Its pretty fun.
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Now playing: Relient K - Over Thinking
via FoxyTunes
I encourage everyone to give it a whirl... and also to download the app for your phone. And, to download Loopt if you are bored. Its pretty fun.
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Now playing: Relient K - Over Thinking
via FoxyTunes
Sunday, March 01, 2009
The conservative in me says...
On another note... I am a republican. I will not stand idly by and be forced to be a moderate. I am not a wishy-washy moderate. I believe in the power of capitalism. I believe as an American I have the right to pursue large goals. I believe that business is what makes America great. I don't think it is unreasonable for me to hope to have a household income of 100k a year. I've worked hard to earn the degrees and will put time to obtain that place in the world, I do not feel that I should be punished.
It is not our right to have a health care. It is not our right to be provided a home. It is not a our right to free money. It is our right to EARN it. It is our right to work hard and be successful. Owning a home is not a right, as an American. And, I will not sit here and pay for someone to live in a home they can't afford; especially when I was responsible and did not purchase beyond my means.
It is only a matter of time before this nation realizes the wrong that is being done in the early part of Obama's presidency. I will no longer be quiet about my distaste for these UnAmerican acts. I hope that you will stand behind me.
It is not my job to be bipartison. Why would I agree and be persuaded to do what is wrong? I will not be made to look intolerant for "poor people". I am intolerant of ignorance. I am in tolerant of large government spending. I really hate to put it this way, but would Jesus compromise with the devil? Honestly, should we compromise with something that is redefining our nation.
If you have a momment, I challenge you to read this (and watch the video) of Rush Limbaugh at CPAC. He has been given a bad name. One that is not deserved. He stands for conservatism. He should not be attacked for being the only one to have the balls to stand up as a conservative.
http://www.rushlimbaugh.com/home/daily/site_030209/content/01125106.guest.html
It is not our right to have a health care. It is not our right to be provided a home. It is not a our right to free money. It is our right to EARN it. It is our right to work hard and be successful. Owning a home is not a right, as an American. And, I will not sit here and pay for someone to live in a home they can't afford; especially when I was responsible and did not purchase beyond my means.
It is only a matter of time before this nation realizes the wrong that is being done in the early part of Obama's presidency. I will no longer be quiet about my distaste for these UnAmerican acts. I hope that you will stand behind me.
It is not my job to be bipartison. Why would I agree and be persuaded to do what is wrong? I will not be made to look intolerant for "poor people". I am intolerant of ignorance. I am in tolerant of large government spending. I really hate to put it this way, but would Jesus compromise with the devil? Honestly, should we compromise with something that is redefining our nation.
If you have a momment, I challenge you to read this (and watch the video) of Rush Limbaugh at CPAC. He has been given a bad name. One that is not deserved. He stands for conservatism. He should not be attacked for being the only one to have the balls to stand up as a conservative.
http://www.rushlimbaugh.com/home/daily/site_030209/content/01125106.guest.html
Purpose Driven Life
Just started reading a chapter a day of this book. I know you all have heard of it. Its been making me think lately. Most of it was stuff I already knew... but, I guess I chose not to focus on. Why am I so unhappy right now? Its because I have no purpose... I'm running but I don't know why. I'm searching for the next step in my life, but I'm doing it in a very human way. I'm doing it alone.
I'm discontent. I've spent the last 20 years fighting my way through school. That was probably my main goal. I focused on the short term. Then after that, my goal was to look for a job/career. Now that I'm working full-time at a great job, what is next?
And, on top of that, how am I serving God right now? I try to be light. Most people know I'm a christian at my work. Its nice because I have a very clean slate there. They only problem is that I'm being held back by fear. I'm shy around people I don't know. Its hard for me to talk to people that I see all the time about things that are important to me... how can I do that with strangers?
Its hard for me to let my friends in to my sometimes dark world... how can even think about doing that with people I don't know know at all.
Either way, I know that God is going to work wonders in me. I'm very hopeful. I know that I am supposed to be in this place. I just need to let go of control and let him tell me why.
Until next time...
I'm discontent. I've spent the last 20 years fighting my way through school. That was probably my main goal. I focused on the short term. Then after that, my goal was to look for a job/career. Now that I'm working full-time at a great job, what is next?
And, on top of that, how am I serving God right now? I try to be light. Most people know I'm a christian at my work. Its nice because I have a very clean slate there. They only problem is that I'm being held back by fear. I'm shy around people I don't know. Its hard for me to talk to people that I see all the time about things that are important to me... how can I do that with strangers?
Its hard for me to let my friends in to my sometimes dark world... how can even think about doing that with people I don't know know at all.
Either way, I know that God is going to work wonders in me. I'm very hopeful. I know that I am supposed to be in this place. I just need to let go of control and let him tell me why.
Until next time...
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
I'm hopeful for the future... no more of the stagnant blah. I've really had enough. I'm miserable the way things are right now.
It is hard not to be slightly down and depressed with the things happening around me.
No more... Seriously, no more...
I Was Broken
"Said I used to think the past was dead and gone
But I was wrong, so wrong
Whatever makes you blind must make you strong,make you strong
In my time I've melted into many forms
From the day that I was born,I know that there is no place to hide
Stuck between the burning shade and the fading light
I was broken for a long time
But it's over now"
It is hard not to be slightly down and depressed with the things happening around me.
No more... Seriously, no more...
I Was Broken
"Said I used to think the past was dead and gone
But I was wrong, so wrong
Whatever makes you blind must make you strong,make you strong
In my time I've melted into many forms
From the day that I was born,I know that there is no place to hide
Stuck between the burning shade and the fading light
I was broken for a long time
But it's over now"
Monday, February 16, 2009
I'll Be Your Lover Too by Rob Pattinson
[Here is a beautiful love song. Love it :)]
I'll be your man
And I'll understand
And I'll do my best
To take good care of you
You'll be my queen
I'll be your king
And I'll be your lover too
Yeah yeah
Yes I will
Derry down green
Color of my dream
A dream that's daily coming true.
And ohhh when the day is through
I will come to you and tell you of
Your many charms
And girl you look at me
With eyes that see
And we'll melt into each others eyes
You'll be my queen
And I'll be your king
And I'll be your lover too
I'll be your man
And I'll understand
And I'll do my best
To take good care of you
You'll be my queen
I'll be your king
And I'll be your lover too
Yeah yeah
Yes I will
Derry down green
Color of my dream
A dream that's daily coming true.
And ohhh when the day is through
I will come to you and tell you of
Your many charms
And girl you look at me
With eyes that see
And we'll melt into each others eyes
You'll be my queen
And I'll be your king
And I'll be your lover too
Sunday, February 15, 2009
My life is changing... I feel like I'm the verge of something. When will I be aware of what to do? Things are stagnant. I know that there are things that need to change, but when and what?
I love the idea that things are changing, but I scared at the same time.
Music is helping me through this transition period. You could sense the fickle emotions with the songs that I have completely worn out on my beloved iphone.
Hey, have I mentioned that since I began to get healthy 4 weeks ago, I have lost 8lbs? :) That's 2lbs a week. Its been an uphill battle for a month, but I'm so happy that its getting easier. Its not such a struggle to choose an apple over a bag of chips. It has really been a lifestyle change. Hopefully this time it will be permanent. I think it will since this time I'm doing it correctly. And, I've gotten Erick involved, though he is not always supportive of me... I'm strong enough to say no. :) "Just say no"
I've come to some realizations about my dependence on food... though I think that discussion will take place at another time. Its not really that important to me right now... its not really what I'm thinking about.
I'm happy I have tomorrow off. :) One of the many advantages of working for the county.
I love the idea that things are changing, but I scared at the same time.
Music is helping me through this transition period. You could sense the fickle emotions with the songs that I have completely worn out on my beloved iphone.
Hey, have I mentioned that since I began to get healthy 4 weeks ago, I have lost 8lbs? :) That's 2lbs a week. Its been an uphill battle for a month, but I'm so happy that its getting easier. Its not such a struggle to choose an apple over a bag of chips. It has really been a lifestyle change. Hopefully this time it will be permanent. I think it will since this time I'm doing it correctly. And, I've gotten Erick involved, though he is not always supportive of me... I'm strong enough to say no. :) "Just say no"
I've come to some realizations about my dependence on food... though I think that discussion will take place at another time. Its not really that important to me right now... its not really what I'm thinking about.
I'm happy I have tomorrow off. :) One of the many advantages of working for the county.
Monsters by Matchbook Romance
girl, what's come between you and me?
look right through me
i'll let it go
i can't help this feeling anymore
i would go anywhere
maybe you'll see
we are
we are the shaken (shaken)
we are the monsters (monsters)
underneath your bed
yeah
believe what you read
we are
we are mistaken (staken)
we are the voices (voices)
inside your head
yeah
believe what you see
it came as no surprise
you bring me back to life
believe me
you bleed for me
i'll bleed for you
i caught you walking through walls
drowned with applause
from the world that makes me crazy
we are
we are the shaken (shaken)
we are the monsters (monsters)
underneath your bed
yeah
believe what you read
we are
we are mistaken (staken)
we are the voices (voices)
inside your head
yeah
believe what you see
yeah
we are the monsters
we are the monsters
we are the monsters
underneath your bed
we are the voices
we are the voices
we are the voices
underneath your bed
we are the monsters
we are the monsters
we are the monsters
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
we are
we are the shaken (shaken)
we are the monsters (monsters)
underneath your bed
yeah
believe what you read
we are
we are mistaken (staken)
we are the voices (voices)
inside your head
yeah
believe what you see
we are
we are the shaken (shaken)
we are the monsters (monsters)
underneath your bed
yeah
believe what you see
look right through me
i'll let it go
i can't help this feeling anymore
i would go anywhere
maybe you'll see
we are
we are the shaken (shaken)
we are the monsters (monsters)
underneath your bed
yeah
believe what you read
we are
we are mistaken (staken)
we are the voices (voices)
inside your head
yeah
believe what you see
it came as no surprise
you bring me back to life
believe me
you bleed for me
i'll bleed for you
i caught you walking through walls
drowned with applause
from the world that makes me crazy
we are
we are the shaken (shaken)
we are the monsters (monsters)
underneath your bed
yeah
believe what you read
we are
we are mistaken (staken)
we are the voices (voices)
inside your head
yeah
believe what you see
yeah
we are the monsters
we are the monsters
we are the monsters
underneath your bed
we are the voices
we are the voices
we are the voices
underneath your bed
we are the monsters
we are the monsters
we are the monsters
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
we are
we are the shaken (shaken)
we are the monsters (monsters)
underneath your bed
yeah
believe what you read
we are
we are mistaken (staken)
we are the voices (voices)
inside your head
yeah
believe what you see
we are
we are the shaken (shaken)
we are the monsters (monsters)
underneath your bed
yeah
believe what you see
Friday, January 23, 2009
Let me Sign by Robert Pattinson
Ooh Standing by a broken tree
Her hands are all twisted,
She's pointing at me,
I was damned by the light comin'
Over all as she
Spoke with a voice that,
disrupted the sky.
She said, "Walk on over, yeah to this bit of shade,
I will wrap you in my arms"
And she said,"
Let me sign,
let me sign."
Sunday, January 18, 2009
I'm thinking about starting a new blog.
This blog is kind of drama-ish... and I would like to release another blog to the general public and probably use this one to write more personal stuff. :) I'll let you know what the link is later.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
I've been feeling very discontent lately. What is next? I'm tired of being patient. I'm tired of running non stop. I'm waiting to find out what life is going to hold for me... waiting to find my impact, and yet I have no found it yet. I hope my prime isn't gone. It is sad to think that maybe the reason I'm not great at anything is because I'll die early without leaving my mark on the world. Wow that's a very depressing thought... I'm a very insignificant speck on this earth. so minute... and yet, supposedly special. Who knows.
In Excelsis Deo by Roper
This wooden soul of mine
It cannot ever climb
From places it has fallen
In between where light can shine
It never falls in line
It barely has a spine
Like branches severed from the vine
Like it was faulty by design
And now your mercy lights up my dark eyes
Your brilliant hope now lifts my falling skies
And I'm the object of your affection
You loved me still in my imperfection
[Chorus:]
The sun will shine on winter snow
And shadows fade in Excelsis Deo
This wooden soul is old
It's lies are growing cold
Its knotted trunk is straightening
Its roots are loosening their hold
So cluttered with debris
This inefficient melody
I'll keep waiting patiently
If this world will ever release me
You love me even though I am untrue
If I was perfect, I wouldn't need you
I'm the object of your affection
You loved me still in my imperfection
Gloria, in excelsis Deo
Not so far, not so far to go
In Excelsis Deo by Roper
This wooden soul of mine
It cannot ever climb
From places it has fallen
In between where light can shine
It never falls in line
It barely has a spine
Like branches severed from the vine
Like it was faulty by design
And now your mercy lights up my dark eyes
Your brilliant hope now lifts my falling skies
And I'm the object of your affection
You loved me still in my imperfection
[Chorus:]
The sun will shine on winter snow
And shadows fade in Excelsis Deo
This wooden soul is old
It's lies are growing cold
Its knotted trunk is straightening
Its roots are loosening their hold
So cluttered with debris
This inefficient melody
I'll keep waiting patiently
If this world will ever release me
You love me even though I am untrue
If I was perfect, I wouldn't need you
I'm the object of your affection
You loved me still in my imperfection
Gloria, in excelsis Deo
Not so far, not so far to go
Saturday, January 03, 2009
My annual end of the year sum-up survey :)
1. Go to a party? Actually quite a few this year :) I'm very popular haha jk
2. Try something new? hmm I started working my first full time job/career thing :) Its still pretty new :)
3. Have something change your life? My life is still in the in between graduating and career, but, definitely having a full time job has impacted my life a lot. I'm an ever evolving human being. Just when I think I've become an adult and have things together, something comes around and changes me. :) Its kind of cool this growing up thing. I never thought graduating would change me so much.
4. Kiss someone? Yep. :)
5. Tell your family and friends you love them? I come from a very verbal family. We aren't ashamed to flat out say, "I love you" :) Its kind of cute
6. Buy something extravagant? Well, yes I bought my beautiful, iphone 3G and I also, most recently, stayed a weekend in a 4 star hotel on the strip. It was amazing! :) oh, and as usual, I bought my disneyland pass which set me back 260 dollars... plus 50 dollar parking pass. Easily, the best money I spent this year though (besides my phone) :)
7. Do something nice for you? I try to treat myself more often now that I have a job, which usually consists of me treating people around me too. :) I can't enjoy myself without my friends right along side of me. :)
8. Do something terribly wrong? I'm a perfect little angel, though I'm sure that I have broken a few hearts this year.
9. Move? For the first time in a long time, no! I didn't move! yay!
10. Go to a concert? Most recently, I saw The English Beat :) And, it was by far one of the best concerts I've ever been too! :)
Best of the Year:
1. Party:
2. Show: I'm loving Heroes and Grey's Anatomy... of course the same as last year :)
3. CD: well, as you should know, when I love a cd, I listen to it non-stop until I know everything about it... :) This year, I've been playing my The Smiths - Greatest Hits. Probably too much, actually :)
4. Movie: My favorite movie in the theater I will admit has been Twilight. I'm not one of those crazy twilight fans... but, it compelled me to read the book and that actually made a profound impact on how I see things... suprisingly. Probably doesn't happen to everyone who reads it... but it was definitely influential in my current mood.
5. Song: Currently, Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron and Wine... but, not for political reasons. :)
6. Experience: I guess so far it has been growing up and experiencing my first full-time job... its nothing like I expected.
7. Concert: English Beat/B Sharps :) It was AMAZING! :)
8. Book: So far a cross between Eclipse and Twilight... :) Again, it is weird how such a simple book can be so influential on my state of mind. :) I also really enjoyed reading The Time Machine... which was also good for my state of mind at the time.
9. Month: March
10. Day: 17th
Worst of the Year:
1. Party: It was a party that I'd rather not talk about. It was one of the most terrible experiences of my life... back in October. :(
2. Show: What the heck is up with that redneck wedding show... are you kidding me?
3. CD: Listening to Erick's Rockabiliy faze has become a bit much for me to handle.
4. Movie: I know there has to be one... but, I'm not as critical about things as I use to be. Things still bug me... a few specific things, but mostly I've just let things go.
5. Song: haha maybe I'm completely disconnected from current trends, but I really can't think of one hehe :)
6. Experience: There have been a few strained relationships this year. It was very hard on me... I don't talk about it much... but, things have been said and done that hurt me a lot.
7. Concert: hmm... I can't imagine myself going to a bad show to be honest. :)
8. Book: hmm... haven't read anything I didn't enjoy. One of the very nice things about being graduated.
9. Month: probably June.
10. Day: I don't remember one specific day
Hopes for 2009:
1. Predict something that you think will happen in 2009? I hope the economy changes... but, I don't see that happening in the near future. Its a very sad thing actually.
2. What do you hope changes about your country? I hope that unemployment rates go up and that we avoid screwing up everything we did with international policy in the last 8 years.
3. What do you hope for yourself? I hope that I will find a job in the County Counsel's office and get married :)
4. What do you hope for your family? I pray for the brand new addition to my family. :)
5. What do you hope for your best friend? I hope he is able to be happy working full time. I think he is very use to a stressfree life of school and sleep... It might be a shock having to be depended on... but, I know he can do it. :)
6. What do you hope for the rest of your friends? I hope they live very miserably! of course! :)
7. Do you think any amazing medical advances will be made? hmm... probably not anything that will be applied to the general public. :)
2. Try something new? hmm I started working my first full time job/career thing :) Its still pretty new :)
3. Have something change your life? My life is still in the in between graduating and career, but, definitely having a full time job has impacted my life a lot. I'm an ever evolving human being. Just when I think I've become an adult and have things together, something comes around and changes me. :) Its kind of cool this growing up thing. I never thought graduating would change me so much.
4. Kiss someone? Yep. :)
5. Tell your family and friends you love them? I come from a very verbal family. We aren't ashamed to flat out say, "I love you" :) Its kind of cute
6. Buy something extravagant? Well, yes I bought my beautiful, iphone 3G and I also, most recently, stayed a weekend in a 4 star hotel on the strip. It was amazing! :) oh, and as usual, I bought my disneyland pass which set me back 260 dollars... plus 50 dollar parking pass. Easily, the best money I spent this year though (besides my phone) :)
7. Do something nice for you? I try to treat myself more often now that I have a job, which usually consists of me treating people around me too. :) I can't enjoy myself without my friends right along side of me. :)
8. Do something terribly wrong? I'm a perfect little angel, though I'm sure that I have broken a few hearts this year.
9. Move? For the first time in a long time, no! I didn't move! yay!
10. Go to a concert? Most recently, I saw The English Beat :) And, it was by far one of the best concerts I've ever been too! :)
Best of the Year:
1. Party:
2. Show: I'm loving Heroes and Grey's Anatomy... of course the same as last year :)
3. CD: well, as you should know, when I love a cd, I listen to it non-stop until I know everything about it... :) This year, I've been playing my The Smiths - Greatest Hits. Probably too much, actually :)
4. Movie: My favorite movie in the theater I will admit has been Twilight. I'm not one of those crazy twilight fans... but, it compelled me to read the book and that actually made a profound impact on how I see things... suprisingly. Probably doesn't happen to everyone who reads it... but it was definitely influential in my current mood.
5. Song: Currently, Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron and Wine... but, not for political reasons. :)
6. Experience: I guess so far it has been growing up and experiencing my first full-time job... its nothing like I expected.
7. Concert: English Beat/B Sharps :) It was AMAZING! :)
8. Book: So far a cross between Eclipse and Twilight... :) Again, it is weird how such a simple book can be so influential on my state of mind. :) I also really enjoyed reading The Time Machine... which was also good for my state of mind at the time.
9. Month: March
10. Day: 17th
Worst of the Year:
1. Party: It was a party that I'd rather not talk about. It was one of the most terrible experiences of my life... back in October. :(
2. Show: What the heck is up with that redneck wedding show... are you kidding me?
3. CD: Listening to Erick's Rockabiliy faze has become a bit much for me to handle.
4. Movie: I know there has to be one... but, I'm not as critical about things as I use to be. Things still bug me... a few specific things, but mostly I've just let things go.
5. Song: haha maybe I'm completely disconnected from current trends, but I really can't think of one hehe :)
6. Experience: There have been a few strained relationships this year. It was very hard on me... I don't talk about it much... but, things have been said and done that hurt me a lot.
7. Concert: hmm... I can't imagine myself going to a bad show to be honest. :)
8. Book: hmm... haven't read anything I didn't enjoy. One of the very nice things about being graduated.
9. Month: probably June.
10. Day: I don't remember one specific day
Hopes for 2009:
1. Predict something that you think will happen in 2009? I hope the economy changes... but, I don't see that happening in the near future. Its a very sad thing actually.
2. What do you hope changes about your country? I hope that unemployment rates go up and that we avoid screwing up everything we did with international policy in the last 8 years.
3. What do you hope for yourself? I hope that I will find a job in the County Counsel's office and get married :)
4. What do you hope for your family? I pray for the brand new addition to my family. :)
5. What do you hope for your best friend? I hope he is able to be happy working full time. I think he is very use to a stressfree life of school and sleep... It might be a shock having to be depended on... but, I know he can do it. :)
6. What do you hope for the rest of your friends? I hope they live very miserably! of course! :)
7. Do you think any amazing medical advances will be made? hmm... probably not anything that will be applied to the general public. :)
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