How can I accept a gift or a date or anything when its completely based off of impressing someone else? You cannot do things to make someone jealous. What happened to the days when you were just interested in me.
I feel like I can't even compete any more... with all this lets make her jealous. For once, just focus on me.

I know that I should have this much hatred running through my bones... but, really I feel so I want certain people to suffer for all the pain that they are causing me.
Again, I know its wrong.
But, where is my justice?
I suppose it is going to be better coming from God than to come from me.
God is a vengeful God... he protects his children.
So I guess that what I have to keep reminding myself :)