Monday, July 31, 2006
School is rolling in! I'm so happy! I have 3 semester left! yay! My last semester will only be like a little amount of time! I'll probably get a full time job my last semester and go to school at night. I mean, I'll only have like 12 units left. I might even be able to take it during the summer... we'll see. I'd like to get as much done as soon as possible so I can finally get on with life. I think it is ridiculous to be in school for like 10 years... working on a stupid bachlors degree! maybe if I was working on a PhD. You know what I think is just as ridiculous? People who go to RCC because its "cheaper" and then they end up spending more time in school... therefore spending more money... crazy! Ok Lates yos!
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Friday, July 28, 2006
one more thing
that reminds me... I need to freaking add "intro to Kione Greek" haha!!
I'll do that right now!
I'll do that right now!
quick like a fox!
Calbaptist is amazing... let me tell you. It was a whole mess... and it got fixed in about a week. So let me start from the beginning... I don't think I've said everything on this blog.
Ok, so I got put on Financial Aid Probation... ya, what the crap is that? Its not even academic probation its financial aid... so, why you may ask... well, because I had 2 withdraws. I wasn't even aware that I couldn't make a withdraw last fall... but, I did and then when spring rolled around and I wasn't doing so well in ASL2(because I hadn't taken it in a year) I dropped that class too...
Then, later, I find out that I was on probation and that if I dropped another class I would get my financial aid cut off. And, I found this out after I dropped ASL2... so they terminated my financial aid for fall 2006!! what the crap eh? So, I had to go through an appeal process... which wasn't too hard. All I had to do was show them that I have good grades and why I dropped asl and how I'm consistent... which was easy since I really do have really great grades!
So anyway... I just got the letter back from them and yay for me I got it reinstated.
The thing that was most cool was I turned all my paper work in last tuesday, and I got a letter from them this tuesday... which got lost in my dad's car for 3 days and finally arrived in my hands today... but, still I wasn't expecting the letter until next week sometime.
I'm pretty excited because I've been stressing about this for a while.
I still have to worry about the last 1,000 or so for books and other stuff... but, I think that will work out... if not, who need books? just kiding! I'm a A student now! I actually have to read my books and do my homework.
And, like I said, University is harder than most people realize... so ya, for me!
I'm starting school in a month. I wonder if I can move on campus early. I should find out about that.
Ok, so I got put on Financial Aid Probation... ya, what the crap is that? Its not even academic probation its financial aid... so, why you may ask... well, because I had 2 withdraws. I wasn't even aware that I couldn't make a withdraw last fall... but, I did and then when spring rolled around and I wasn't doing so well in ASL2(because I hadn't taken it in a year) I dropped that class too...
Then, later, I find out that I was on probation and that if I dropped another class I would get my financial aid cut off. And, I found this out after I dropped ASL2... so they terminated my financial aid for fall 2006!! what the crap eh? So, I had to go through an appeal process... which wasn't too hard. All I had to do was show them that I have good grades and why I dropped asl and how I'm consistent... which was easy since I really do have really great grades!
So anyway... I just got the letter back from them and yay for me I got it reinstated.
The thing that was most cool was I turned all my paper work in last tuesday, and I got a letter from them this tuesday... which got lost in my dad's car for 3 days and finally arrived in my hands today... but, still I wasn't expecting the letter until next week sometime.
I'm pretty excited because I've been stressing about this for a while.
I still have to worry about the last 1,000 or so for books and other stuff... but, I think that will work out... if not, who need books? just kiding! I'm a A student now! I actually have to read my books and do my homework.
And, like I said, University is harder than most people realize... so ya, for me!
I'm starting school in a month. I wonder if I can move on campus early. I should find out about that.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
a big sigh of relief
I just researched some of my files and I found out that I get about 2,000 more now that I am a junior. I'm pretty excited about that. That means, I should have enough for this semester. I've been really stressed about it. Also, I think I should be able to buy my books on Half.com which should cut off a good chunk of my costs last semester.
I'm pretty excited because I think I can bump up my meal plan again then. I really would like to have 13 meals a week again. For some reason, I got moved down to 10. I expect to be eating all my meals since I'm not really in choir. I mean, I'm considering it... but, I'm not sure.
Anyway... I am doing ok. I was freaking out a few minutes ago about school, but I should be receiving my final financial aid award letter sometime in the next week... and from there it should be good! :)
yays!
I'm pretty excited because I think I can bump up my meal plan again then. I really would like to have 13 meals a week again. For some reason, I got moved down to 10. I expect to be eating all my meals since I'm not really in choir. I mean, I'm considering it... but, I'm not sure.
Anyway... I am doing ok. I was freaking out a few minutes ago about school, but I should be receiving my final financial aid award letter sometime in the next week... and from there it should be good! :)
yays!
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
I read my devotions today...
I think it was good... sometimes we get stuck up on what we can't be... on things that we think our impossible. I think what we fail to realize that we are never going to be these things but we are going to be in times of need. We fail to realize that we don't do them on our own we just need to pray that we will be when God needs us to be.
I read Matthew 5 today too... I think, I want to work toward these... I want to be blessed by God beyond all things that I can do on my own. I think I will strive toward these and memorize them.
What can be better than being blessed by my creator?? :) NOTHING!
I think it was good... sometimes we get stuck up on what we can't be... on things that we think our impossible. I think what we fail to realize that we are never going to be these things but we are going to be in times of need. We fail to realize that we don't do them on our own we just need to pray that we will be when God needs us to be.
I read Matthew 5 today too... I think, I want to work toward these... I want to be blessed by God beyond all things that I can do on my own. I think I will strive toward these and memorize them.
What can be better than being blessed by my creator?? :) NOTHING!
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Ding ding!
I just thought of it... How can some one expect to be friends without as little as a phone call? I don't care if you are not a phone person! That is ridiculous to think that things will be ok without even talking at all. And, ya, I should call more... but, I'm kind of turned off from calling sometimes when you do call and they can't afford it or don't have time. I can't help that my plans are last minute. That doesn't mean I am immature... it just means that plans change, and things come up at the last second. Whatever eh?
In the end, I'm so happy I have the friends that I have right now. We argue... but, its completely healthy. I'm not afraid to tell them what is bothering me... and they tell me. I can call and vent and call and cry. I can be myself and really evolve into a new self without worrying about losing my friends. I don't know how many times I felt stagnent because I wanted to do something more with my life but, my friends were so quick to judge and refuse to do it, and if I choose to do it they would get jealous that I was doing something else. What the "f"?
Anyway... this might seem out of no where... but, I guess every so often I'm reminded why I do like these certain people... I think there is a point where these people should just sit down and listen and not be so defensive. It doesn't matter why you did something or how... all that matters is that it hurts me or someone else... your intentions don't make it any better... :)
So, with that said... I'm done for now... :)
In the end, I'm so happy I have the friends that I have right now. We argue... but, its completely healthy. I'm not afraid to tell them what is bothering me... and they tell me. I can call and vent and call and cry. I can be myself and really evolve into a new self without worrying about losing my friends. I don't know how many times I felt stagnent because I wanted to do something more with my life but, my friends were so quick to judge and refuse to do it, and if I choose to do it they would get jealous that I was doing something else. What the "f"?
Anyway... this might seem out of no where... but, I guess every so often I'm reminded why I do like these certain people... I think there is a point where these people should just sit down and listen and not be so defensive. It doesn't matter why you did something or how... all that matters is that it hurts me or someone else... your intentions don't make it any better... :)
So, with that said... I'm done for now... :)
such a good mood... why?
Why you may ask? well, I guess I'm just evil vasking in the sad, pathetic lives of others! :) oh how great life is! :) I think I'm doing so well for myself. I can't wait to start school... and oh , shoot... I just remembered I need to sign up for Kione Greek for this semester. I think I'll do that tomorrow :)
I can't wait to take greek! I'm so proud of myself this year. This past semester, I did so well! And, even though I had super hard classes... I got really good grades. I love my school.
People still don't understand... but, I'm sure they will one day when they have to ready like a 100 pages a night just for one class and write 40 pages for a final. Ya, to me, that sounds harder than a 2 year college. Atleast, all the classes that I had! :) And, I took some of the harder classes that were offered.
Anyway... I'm doing good! I'm feeling happy! I'm waiting for my financial aid clearance to come in... it should be this week. My EFC is 000000! I'll still have to pay for my housing... which will run me about 2,000 a semester. But, its ok! My loans are so much lower than everyone elses that I know.
I'm done for now... I'll probably be back later! LATES YO!
I can't wait to take greek! I'm so proud of myself this year. This past semester, I did so well! And, even though I had super hard classes... I got really good grades. I love my school.
People still don't understand... but, I'm sure they will one day when they have to ready like a 100 pages a night just for one class and write 40 pages for a final. Ya, to me, that sounds harder than a 2 year college. Atleast, all the classes that I had! :) And, I took some of the harder classes that were offered.
Anyway... I'm doing good! I'm feeling happy! I'm waiting for my financial aid clearance to come in... it should be this week. My EFC is 000000! I'll still have to pay for my housing... which will run me about 2,000 a semester. But, its ok! My loans are so much lower than everyone elses that I know.
I'm done for now... I'll probably be back later! LATES YO!
Saturday, July 22, 2006
A long day...
A long day of nothing... what a big obvious... :(
I've been begging Erick to do something with me... but, basically I got a bunch of... "hold on" or "in a second" and now its like 7:30... and that second has turned into like 6 hours!
aye!!
Anyway... yesterday, Erick and I had another date. We went to see Lady in the Water and Pirates of the Caribean. Definately Lady in the Water was such a good movie. I must say...!
I want to buy the movie... it was scary like his other movies... maybe, a little scary but, most of it was humerous and suspensful at the same time. It is a great combination.
I think I'm done right now... I don't really have a lot to say... just trying to find a fall job. I want to work in the Registars Office this year. I hope I get that job.
Ok lates
I've been begging Erick to do something with me... but, basically I got a bunch of... "hold on" or "in a second" and now its like 7:30... and that second has turned into like 6 hours!
aye!!
Anyway... yesterday, Erick and I had another date. We went to see Lady in the Water and Pirates of the Caribean. Definately Lady in the Water was such a good movie. I must say...!
I want to buy the movie... it was scary like his other movies... maybe, a little scary but, most of it was humerous and suspensful at the same time. It is a great combination.
I think I'm done right now... I don't really have a lot to say... just trying to find a fall job. I want to work in the Registars Office this year. I hope I get that job.
Ok lates
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
date night :)
or... more like day. I woke up yesterday to "sunny with the high of 75..." playing on my phone. It was about 8:30. I drag Erick out of bed and make him take a shower while I sleep for another 30 minutes.
We went to Disneyland!! ya, I know... we go a lot... if anyone was reading this they might think we would get tired of it. In fact, we only went for like 4 hours or so... we only rode 3 rides. :) It was fun though. After that we went to get an early dinner, and then to Dave and Busters.... where I have discovered yet another favorite drink of mine.... "Walk the Plank".... oh my gosh its good!
We went to Angels Stadium and had a good game. Then we went back to Dave and Busters... except this time we went to the one in ontario.... where I again got a Walk the Plank... it was so good! yummy yummy
Anyway... I came home and that was it...
I was super tired
The end
We went to Disneyland!! ya, I know... we go a lot... if anyone was reading this they might think we would get tired of it. In fact, we only went for like 4 hours or so... we only rode 3 rides. :) It was fun though. After that we went to get an early dinner, and then to Dave and Busters.... where I have discovered yet another favorite drink of mine.... "Walk the Plank".... oh my gosh its good!
We went to Angels Stadium and had a good game. Then we went back to Dave and Busters... except this time we went to the one in ontario.... where I again got a Walk the Plank... it was so good! yummy yummy
Anyway... I came home and that was it...
I was super tired
The end
Monday, July 17, 2006
in future...
Plans for the future... I'm pretty excited! I'm kind of sad that this college thing is falling away for the time being for Erick... but, At the same time, I'm really excited about everything that is falling into place... slowly, but still! I can't wait! Erick is getting a full time job... it really hasn't taken too long. He has his 3rd interview at Kaiser where he'll start off making almost 14 dollars an hour. Let me say, that's pretty good for an entry level job... and of course it will also be steady. He won't be worrying about getting enough hours in a week to pay the bills. Anyway... I'm looking forward to graduating and getting married and having kids.
Its going to happen! And, its not going to happen too long from now... :) I'm getting an on campus job this semester so I can start saving for our wedding. Its kind of expensive to have a decent wedding. But, I think I want to celebrate our love and our commitment. We only have one wedding. Anyway... I don't want to spend like 100k on it but, I do want a nice wedding. I want a nice dress and a nice building and real reception. Erick said I can start building my notebook of stuff I want... I think I'll start it when I go back to school.
Anyway... I'm watching The United States of Leland. I've been waiting to see this movie. I wanted to buy it for a long time... and then this morning I saw it was going to be on cable! yay! So... I think I'm done for now... I'm going to go finish my movie!
Its going to happen! And, its not going to happen too long from now... :) I'm getting an on campus job this semester so I can start saving for our wedding. Its kind of expensive to have a decent wedding. But, I think I want to celebrate our love and our commitment. We only have one wedding. Anyway... I don't want to spend like 100k on it but, I do want a nice wedding. I want a nice dress and a nice building and real reception. Erick said I can start building my notebook of stuff I want... I think I'll start it when I go back to school.
Anyway... I'm watching The United States of Leland. I've been waiting to see this movie. I wanted to buy it for a long time... and then this morning I saw it was going to be on cable! yay! So... I think I'm done for now... I'm going to go finish my movie!
Saturday, July 08, 2006
a lonely life :(
Its so boring here in the my casa during the day. No Tv... No people around... just cats! And the cats mostly sleep during the day. Erick just went home to hopefully score some gas. Who knows if he will or not. I knew he was going to wake up late. He always wakes up late. I'm so bored... I wish he would have just gone home last night and slept at his house and then drove over around now. It would have been better.
Anyway... I'm so bored. As you saw yesterday, I have been flooded with memories of the past. It really sucks to think about all these people that I loved and cared for not in my grasp any more. I miss these fools! It was nice to hear that Robby still thought of me when he heard certain songs and it was nice to hear that Mike is doing well. But, beyond that I wish there were more oppurtuinties to become good friends again. It kind of makes me sad. Certain people I don't really care any more that we aren't good friends... because the more I look at it we were just pretending to be friends and using each other as a clutch. But, people like Mike who I shared some momments of being down on the ground with. I feel like I miss his friendship. Maybe when I'm back in Riverside in a couple of months... I'll be able to build something again. That would be nice.
So... I think I'm done. I need to find something to do and fast.
I just tried to talk to Brandon... who was so completely boring and pretty much wanted nothing to do with talking to me... I just told him I'm oging to go... LATES! screw that... I'm sick of people being judgemental when they have nothing better to offer.
I'm just sick of the Hypocricy floating around these days... just knock it off! I swear!
Anyway... I'm so bored. As you saw yesterday, I have been flooded with memories of the past. It really sucks to think about all these people that I loved and cared for not in my grasp any more. I miss these fools! It was nice to hear that Robby still thought of me when he heard certain songs and it was nice to hear that Mike is doing well. But, beyond that I wish there were more oppurtuinties to become good friends again. It kind of makes me sad. Certain people I don't really care any more that we aren't good friends... because the more I look at it we were just pretending to be friends and using each other as a clutch. But, people like Mike who I shared some momments of being down on the ground with. I feel like I miss his friendship. Maybe when I'm back in Riverside in a couple of months... I'll be able to build something again. That would be nice.
So... I think I'm done. I need to find something to do and fast.
I just tried to talk to Brandon... who was so completely boring and pretty much wanted nothing to do with talking to me... I just told him I'm oging to go... LATES! screw that... I'm sick of people being judgemental when they have nothing better to offer.
I'm just sick of the Hypocricy floating around these days... just knock it off! I swear!
Friday, July 07, 2006
run away... :(
I've been sitting her searching through Myspace... mostly aimless... I'm incredibly bored... but, in the end I have decided that I am worse off. I actually feel sad; too many memories have resurfaced and to many sad endings.
Do you ever wonder what happened? I miss all these people... and mostly I only hang out with like 10 of them... but, its not like it use to be.
too sad :(
Do you ever wonder what happened? I miss all these people... and mostly I only hang out with like 10 of them... but, its not like it use to be.
too sad :(
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Sunburns... ouch :(
I have the worst sunburn ever inherated by man. I swear that even my lips are sunburned... :( My shoulders are practically falling off they hurt so bad. I couldn't sleep on my side last night and some how when I woke up my fingers were numb even though I hadn't even been sleeping on them. I'm so done with this sunburn thing. The one time I try to be ahead of it... look what happens :(
Its absolutely riduclous!
Anyway... I'm waiting for Erick. I wonder if he's even awake. Part of me says hes not... I don't think he is going to get any of his work done... which is slightly disappointing... but, what am I going to do about it?
I'm also really excited because Erick's mom wants him to take his sister to Disneyland, which means that I will get to go too! Its going to be fun. I really like his sister when she's not asking a billion questions and proving that she is smarter than the entire world. I see a little bit of Erick in her. Its cute. I haven't really talked to her since Erick had his drunk incident at the beach, and since Erick's neighbor went postal and tried to kick Erick out of his own house... thank God she isn't welcome around any more.
Anyway... I'm anticipating it to be a great trip! I think we need a forth person... Probably one of Heidi's friends? I don't know. All I know is that for once Erick and I won't be scrounging up dollars to have dinner. It should be really fun.
There isn't a whole lot going on right now. My nana came home today which is good news. With all the death this year, I don't know if I could handle her dying too... even though she isn't my favorite person sometimes. But, it is really good that she is going home... though, I'm not sure how long. It seems to me that she doesn't take care of herself like she should. She doesn't drink enough fluids which is what got her into this most recent situation in the first place.
Who knows?
Anyway... I think I'm going to go... for some reason our cable is out... which is kind of really anoying! I wanted to watch General Hospital... It better be back on at 5 so I can watch the Gilmore Girls! I'm hoping Jess and Rory will make up and then hook up! :) yay!
ok LATES
Its absolutely riduclous!
Anyway... I'm waiting for Erick. I wonder if he's even awake. Part of me says hes not... I don't think he is going to get any of his work done... which is slightly disappointing... but, what am I going to do about it?
I'm also really excited because Erick's mom wants him to take his sister to Disneyland, which means that I will get to go too! Its going to be fun. I really like his sister when she's not asking a billion questions and proving that she is smarter than the entire world. I see a little bit of Erick in her. Its cute. I haven't really talked to her since Erick had his drunk incident at the beach, and since Erick's neighbor went postal and tried to kick Erick out of his own house... thank God she isn't welcome around any more.
Anyway... I'm anticipating it to be a great trip! I think we need a forth person... Probably one of Heidi's friends? I don't know. All I know is that for once Erick and I won't be scrounging up dollars to have dinner. It should be really fun.
There isn't a whole lot going on right now. My nana came home today which is good news. With all the death this year, I don't know if I could handle her dying too... even though she isn't my favorite person sometimes. But, it is really good that she is going home... though, I'm not sure how long. It seems to me that she doesn't take care of herself like she should. She doesn't drink enough fluids which is what got her into this most recent situation in the first place.
Who knows?
Anyway... I think I'm going to go... for some reason our cable is out... which is kind of really anoying! I wanted to watch General Hospital... It better be back on at 5 so I can watch the Gilmore Girls! I'm hoping Jess and Rory will make up and then hook up! :) yay!
ok LATES
Monday, July 03, 2006
Getting back to self control
Relax, Jessika! haha :) I'm getting back on my diet. Last week I went over like 100points... probably not that many but more like 20 points! That's a freakin' lot. I'm not going to use any of my Allowance points this week. I'm going to stick the foods I know are like 6 points... or if I'm going to eat something big, I have to make sure I just eat something small for dinner
new... today
So, I've been stressing about my loan. I'm suppose to have things done by Saturday... but, with my nana in the hospital, I haven't been able to. I'm still waiting... but, I called on Friday and told them everything that was going on and like I should have known, they were really understanding. I really love going to a christian college. They make life so much easier.
So, I'm pretty pumped about next year, I still have to move some classes around so I can take Greek... I'm sooooo EXCITED about this class. I wish I could take 21 units next semester... but, I think that would be ridiculous. I was so stressed about class last semester. Though this semester I don't have as many reading classes. I shouldn't be too stressed. Anyway... I'm done! I need to take a look at my degree guide and my catalogue and see what I can move around so I can take Greek! :)
BYE!
So, I'm pretty pumped about next year, I still have to move some classes around so I can take Greek... I'm sooooo EXCITED about this class. I wish I could take 21 units next semester... but, I think that would be ridiculous. I was so stressed about class last semester. Though this semester I don't have as many reading classes. I shouldn't be too stressed. Anyway... I'm done! I need to take a look at my degree guide and my catalogue and see what I can move around so I can take Greek! :)
BYE!
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