A poem Erick wrote for me

"Floramora"

Your love is alive, a sweet perfume to my heart.
Like the smell of your skin,
it awakens to full bloom my senses and soul.
What do I do when rose petals are so soon apart?
I longingly wait until we again,
close together, share this fragrance, common goal.



I love him so much... and that's what I'm thinking right now!

As or Bs?

After talking with my roommate Stephanie, who was valedictorian of her high school... I took the time realize and explain to her why I was only a 3.0 student. I suppose what is most important from that conversation is that I'm the first to say that I choose hanging out with my friends and experiencing life over a grade. Yes, I am a B student, however that does not mean that I'm not as smart as those who surround me. I just choose to live my life doing the amount of work that provides for me a mere B... I guess every semester I decide that this will be the semester that I liven up my grades and do the required work (that I can do but, choose not to)... I think what I have noticed is that I could have an A in anyone of my classes... I haven't had a class that would be impossible for me to get an A in... except Biology... however, I have chosen friends and life over that A. I don't think anyone is better than the other...
I know that in the end, I wont remember I got a B+ in Non western culture and history, but, I'll remember I met my best friends that year, we had lots of great times hanging out and going to Disneyland. My Erick and I were experiencing great moments in our relationship. And, that's what will be most important!

What brought this topic on was about how I managed a 3.1 or something in high school. I choose during high school to delegate my time to band, church, and hanging out with my friends. School was the last on my list, however I did spend a lot of my time working to get an A in AP US History and Government... which I actually enjoyed! However, the rest of my time went to hang out with my friends and learning to play an instrument. It was important to me then, and I wouldn't change those choices for anything in the world.

I'm just rambling... yet again. I think what I am trying to say is that there is so much more to a grade. Its not just laziness, its how you divide your time.

Critical Political Theory

I'm in class... not much to say. I'm tired. I've been skating by with no sleep, I've been managing though. I'm in my favorite class... Critical Political Philosophy and PostModernism. Its pretty fun and amazing to think outside of the box.
My roommates are bugging me... a couple of them minds of children and have no freaking common sense. They have no idea that you shouldn't wash a freaking strainer in the diswasher because it takes up the entire bottom tray. It just doesn't make sense to clean something like that in the dishwasher when you could just take a second out of your day to clean it yourself...
And where is the freaking consideration at one in the morning when stupid Stephanie is just sitting in the living room laughing as loud as she could and waking both Victoria and I in the other room. She is freaking ridiculous. How inconsiderate can a person be? Her laugh was so piercing... I don't care if something said something funny... you don't need to laugh as loud as you can. You can be freaking respecting of your other roommates... who also pay rent.

Anyway... I think I just need to get away. I'm having a good day though... just Stephanie is freaking annoying!

Future blankies of UP335: Purple and Black

What a long week it has been already, stupid Tuesdays dragging me down and punching me in my face. I'm exhausted. This schedule is really kicking my butt. I've been living my hectic life with like 5 hours of sleep at the most. And, after 2 weeks its beginning to show. Obviously I have to go to bed early, but that is hard when I don't get to see Erick on Monday and Wednesdays until like 9:30-10:00 because his class gets out so late. Stupid Santa Ana being so dang far!!
Anyway... what is new? I can't really think of anything at the momment. I'm trying to get a job at the Financial Aid help desk. I think I could do a really good job at that, if not they have a job open down at the post, which I guess could be ok since Erin works there... but, eh...
Anyway... I'm sleepy and that's final. I think I'll go back to my apartment and continue the long process of building (or crocheting) my new blankie! :)

I'm in a difficult situation. How do I choose the side of my bestfriend and roommate, Victoria, or my long time friend, Jason, who at times could be my bestfriend.
Well, I think many people would think that I should choose Jason because we have more history, but honestly in this situation, I have choose Victoria. It is ridiculous for Jason to think that she wasn't going to tell me every reason why their relationship to fall apart. Even the ones that would embarresse her or the ones that made her wrong, she told me, because I'm her bestfriend and we are honest with each other. Anyway... I'm just apalled by his actions.
I think what people don't realize is that relationships are given and takes. I didn't even realize this until I started dating Erick. Its stupid to argue over little things. Those little things aren't even worth it, and if I did our relationship would never last. And, anyway... if you are having to put more into the relationship that it takes away from you and your well being then you are receiving back... well then you shouldn't be in that relaitonship. Relationships are hard... but, they shouldn't be like that.
Anyway... I'm just rambling. I'm not even speaking in complete thoughts. This thought was already dealt with and discussed between Erick and I to try and figure out what we were going to do... and it was decided ultimately we were on Victoria's side.
The end!!

Anyway.... I'm so tired. I've had a long couple of days... I started school last week and can you believe it, I actually had a quiz on my first day of Greek. And, I have freaking three chapters due on Tuesday... when I'm use to turning in one a week. omgosh!!!
So ya, Greek... you are crazy to me!
oh shoot... I just remembered that I need to watch Land of the Dead for my Tuesday Cinema class. I'm going to talk about how it represent our new millenium with the people's distrust of large companies and rich people and how even if you work your butt off it is very difficult to bring your self to the CEO level!

A long day it has been... we started school. I have an 8am class every day of the week now. I'm going to be so tired. I took two naps today, one was during chapel hour and the other was most recently when I tried to read my constitutional Law book... oh let me find a pic of it so you can see how ridiculous it is!! Its actually a book they use at law school!!
Here's a very small picture... http://product.half.ebay.com/_W0QQprZ44901151QQcpidZ1286817975

Anyway... I tried to read out of it and I got super sleepy... so I took a small nap... and woke up to my roommate laughing hysterically at who knows what... I think she's watching You Got Mail on her laptop.

So, basically, I'm tired and I'm waiting for Erick to get out of class. We had a crisis when we discovered that they changed his classes to 5-10:30pm Wednesday through Saturday... which is absolutely ridiculous!! So he went and talked to his counselor and now he is taking all of his gen. ed this semester and no cooking classes... How can they expect anyone to do the cooking thing if they only offer two classes and the only convient one is closed? crazy school!
Anyway... it worked out which makes me happy!

It bothers me that you stay up so late. You waste all of your awake time joining facebook groops and then you sleep in until late afternoon only to see me for a few hours.... and, than as if that doesn't sadden you enough, you start the whole process over again. Finally, when you are really sad about it, you force me to stay up late and talk to you... even though I have things to do and I don't like sleep in until four just because I can. I'm sick of this. I'm sick of you being late and waking up late. I'm sick of me not being able to get a hold of you. I'm sick of you sleeping in and forcing me to drive around after visiting hours because you didn't get to see me enough. Things better change because I have 8am classes this semester... and its just plain annoying!!

I was there!! Only I was on the other side by the horns!

Streetlight Manifesto on the Fall of Ska tour with RBF, Suburban Legends, and Westbound Train!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N050kbvuLZE

I'm feeling sick still. I'm waiting impatiently for my mom to call me back so I can go to grocery shopping. I'm completely out of food. Its a crazy thing not living with your parents. Ya, I do get food from them when I really need it, but its still crazy. I love it.
Can you imagine in a year and a half, Erick and I might be married? I cannot believe it! My wedding ideas have been in the air. Erick has been buying me wedding magazines. :) I think that is absolutely sweet. I don't know why I'm thinking and rambling about this right now. Its just so close. :) I'll be graduated in a year... and I think he will too. I will off to find a good job, and he will be working in a restaurant. He's got almost all As this semester... :) I'm so proud. It will help him find a good job. Everyone who graduates gets a job... but, we are hoping that he gets a better than average job because he graduates in the top percentage of his class... :)
Anyway... I have to go get ready. Erick is going to be here soon. I should stroll down to the book store and take note of the books that I need to buy... I wonder if I can buy them now. I would love to get started with my classes early. I wish I had enough money to buy a new computer... I'm so sad about my computer problems. I'm sad that I have to use Erick's computer... and not my own. But, anyway... the main point was that I need to get ready because Erick and I are going to pick up my new glasses and go to Hot Topic because Erick got a gift card from his sister!
Ok Lates!

Chik-a-fila for lunch makes me happy :)

SO... listen to my day...
it was cool. I went to Disneyland. No big deal... in fact it began horibbly when Erick and I discovered "Mickey and Friends" parking was closed and were being slowly piped to the Anaheim convention center all the way down the street, then as we were walking in to the parking lot of Timon and Pumba to catch the tram into the park, we read a sign saying that Disneyland was full... we crossed our fingers hoping to get in. It wasn't like we needed to buy tickets. Anyway... after all of this frustration... and after waiting like an hour for rides that we normally wait about 10 minutes for we were slowly walking over to ride Buzz lightyear. I was, in the back of my mind, hoping to go home after this ride. It was a long day. I was tired and I didn't really want to wait in any more lines. We took the long way and passed through an eating area which we never eat at and took a short cut through "Club Buzz" or maybe better known as the Tomorrowland Terrace. I figured it was another cover band that always plays there... when Erick was "who is that? those fools look familar". And it was then I looked up to discover SUBURBAN LEGENDS!!!! I was like, "Isn't that Suburban Legends??" and we looked at each other and walked quickly to the large crowd of ska kids that had formed around them. It was so awesome!! We only caught the last 10 minutes of their set, but yes!! this is Disneyland and they had another set at 10!
We called up our friend Brad, you may know him from choir, who is working as a photo guy and went with us to see them at the Streetlight/Reel Big Fish concert a couple of months ago. Anyway... he hurried up with the rest of his work and power walked all the way from one end of Downtown Disney to Tomorrowland where he caught part of the show with us. It was so much fun!! :) I didn't enjoy them as much the second time I saw them. Probaby because I was tired and I was really wanting to see Streetlight Manifesto... the greatest ska band around... and maybe because they are kind of Emo and I went to see a ska band and what I got was a weird choreographed emoish band... whatever... I really enjoyed them when I saw them at Ska is Dead 2 and when I downloaded their cd about a month ago. The point is that I really enojyed them to night!! It was so cool and fun.
Here is a link of them playing at Disneyland about two months ago. I haven't gotten a chance to upload one of their songs from this time... and obviously no one else has either because they aren't up on youtube yet... but, I'm sure they will eventually. Until then... chew on this!! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JwVEI2MKVrs

So anyway... we finished the day by hanging out with Brad until closing... hitting a few more rides and ending with Indian Jones. I didn't quite get what I wanted accomplished but, thus is life! :)
I think Erick and I will be back at Disneyland tomorrow... We hear Suburban Legends are playing tomorrow too... and I hope to bring my video camera and a real digital camera not just my phone which by the way had a dying battery... what are the odds?
Ok lates... I'm talking a lot and I would personally like to blame that on the "Tylenol Cold and sore throat NIGHT" :)
Thank you... and have a great day!