Just chillin... listening to a string quartet tribute mix including 311, Korn, Coldplay, the Smiths (which is what is on right now), Duran Duran, and some more. I saw that there was a Relient K one... I want it so bad!
Anyway... I just woke up. I read a little from one of my books. I think I'll do my homework for Greek in my Ancient World class. I'm exhausted. I'm sick of school at this point. I would be happy just laying in my bed all day. Is this what happens ever year? I would almost be happier going to a school with a quarter system. Why isn't that possible?
So, I should get back to work. I'm a senior now... and I'm beginning to freak out about what I'm going to be doing after college. I don't have enough money to get my credential... but, do I even want to get mine? What would I do if I didn't? Its all very crazy. Either way, I need more money to get my masters. It really sucks that I can't. I would kill to get my masters.
I don't know how I could get this work. One thing that might be good is that Erick and I should be getting married in about a year and a half. We'll be graduated in a year. So, I'll be able to atleast go back to school part time, while I get a job in a museum or something. I wouldn't mind working in a law firm either. Though, I think a museum would be amazing. They have some pretty good ones around here... atleast until I get some more experience to do something else.
Anyway... I'm done with all of this worrying. I need to pass my classes first! :)
LATES
Monday, November 27, 2006
Sunday, November 26, 2006
It is another day and I still haven't even progressed in my paper adventure! oye! I think my problem is that I don't really know as much as I think I do... and I need to just sit down and read it all. I'm considering printing it all out and bring it with me to Disneyland where I can highlight key things that I want. So what if its going to be like 20 pages. Its something I need to do. I have a freaking hundred percent in that class!
On a side note, I was pretty emotional last night. It might be because of all this crazy homeworking (as Erick would say) that I've been doing. It worked out though. I had a good time with Victoria, Jason, Mike, and Erick. They are the greatest friends. Even with Jason is grouchy because he is tired... I still love him. Even when he invites himself over to play games and then gets tired through the middle of it and makes a big scene... I still love him. :)
Anyway... I'm going to go work on this paper a little more.
This government one is really kicking me in the butt. How can I possibly create a government? I think I'm oging to reform our government, and make it more like the ancient chinese with strict testing for all public officials. I have no idea how I could impliment that.... I guess I would have to have a revolution, like I was saying yesterday before I dotted off. Sometimes when I'm doing something I dot off because I start doing something else and forget about things. Erick finally discovered my blog hours later and asked me what I should do with it. And, to his reply, I said, "Just send it... I'll deal with it later"
Anyway... I've decided just to leave it!
So lates!
On a side note, I was pretty emotional last night. It might be because of all this crazy homeworking (as Erick would say) that I've been doing. It worked out though. I had a good time with Victoria, Jason, Mike, and Erick. They are the greatest friends. Even with Jason is grouchy because he is tired... I still love him. Even when he invites himself over to play games and then gets tired through the middle of it and makes a big scene... I still love him. :)
Anyway... I'm going to go work on this paper a little more.
This government one is really kicking me in the butt. How can I possibly create a government? I think I'm oging to reform our government, and make it more like the ancient chinese with strict testing for all public officials. I have no idea how I could impliment that.... I guess I would have to have a revolution, like I was saying yesterday before I dotted off. Sometimes when I'm doing something I dot off because I start doing something else and forget about things. Erick finally discovered my blog hours later and asked me what I should do with it. And, to his reply, I said, "Just send it... I'll deal with it later"
Anyway... I've decided just to leave it!
So lates!
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Concentrate!!
Is this what it is like to be a guy? I'm unable to concentrate on what I need to do. I feel like my mind has shut off. I'm usually a really great writer, but I'm really challenged right now. I have no idea what I'm doing at this point. I feel like I'm taken on too much. As Bilbo said, I feel like I'm not enough butter being spread over a lot of bread. I'm freaking out here! I have three papers due in the next week. I've tried to start them. I've been sitting here thinking and trying to write... but, nothing really comes out that makes sense. How the crap am I suppose to even start a paper creating a government. I have no idea!! I don't claim to be a great philosopher. I guess my problem is that I have a hard time starting things if I know it won't be perfect. I know that what ever government I choose to create, there will be flaws. What kind of government can even be implimented in this state of America? People are so ignorant. People don't like change. They don't know whats good for them or even what kind of government we have, much less be able to grasp a new form of government. Maybe this mean that in order for a new government to form in America an revolution would have to take place; one of either war or protest. Education of America's flaws must be publicized. Though I know this would make our government appear to be flawed. It is hard for America to go on without a smudge of pride.
I think one thing that has hurt our perception of government are our freedoms. Freedom of speech and what ever else has limited our national pride. How many people do you see respect our president because he is our president? Not many! Many people hate him. I think this works with other president, not just president Bush. Telivision shows
I think one thing that has hurt our perception of government are our freedoms. Freedom of speech and what ever else has limited our national pride. How many people do you see respect our president because he is our president? Not many! Many people hate him. I think this works with other president, not just president Bush. Telivision shows
Concentrate!!
Is this what it is like to be a guy? I'm unable to concentrate on what I need to do. I feel like my mind has shut off. I'm usually a really great writer, but I'm really challenged right now. I have no idea what I'm doing at this point. I feel like I'm taken on too much. As Bilbo said, I feel like I'm not enough butter being spread over a lot of bread. I'm freaking out here! I have three papers due in the next week. I've tried to start them. I've been sitting here thinking and trying to write... but, nothing really comes out that makes sense. How the crap am I suppose to even start a paper creating a government. I have no idea!! I don't claim to be a great philosopher. I guess my problem is that I have a hard time starting things if I know it won't be perfect. I know that what ever government I choose to create, there will be flaws. What kind of government can even be implimented in this state of America? People are so ignorant. People don't like change. They don't know whats good for them or even what kind of government we have, much less be able to grasp a new form of government. Maybe this mean that in order for a new government to form in America an revolution would have to take place; one of either war or protest. Education of America's flaws must be publicized. Though I know this would make our government appear to be flawed. It is hard for America to go on without a smudge of pride.
I think one thing that has hurt our perception of government are our freedoms. Freedom of speech and what ever else has limited our national pride. How many people do you see respect our president because he is our president? Not many! Many people hate him. I think this works with other president, not just president Bush. Telivision shows
I think one thing that has hurt our perception of government are our freedoms. Freedom of speech and what ever else has limited our national pride. How many people do you see respect our president because he is our president? Not many! Many people hate him. I think this works with other president, not just president Bush. Telivision shows
Monday, November 20, 2006
As I have already said on my myspace blog... I rearranged my schedule tonight to I could squeeze out Old Testament Survey and in Comparative World Views... in the end, I'm stuck taking Admin law... which I'm not too happy about. I just hope that Globalization moves to a spot so I can take that... or maybe, I'll consider taking a night class. I'm pretty happy about my other classes though... Tolkien should be good :)
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Friday, November 17, 2006
let me just say... for once!
It is hard for me to explain the problem I, and the rest of my roommates are having with our other roommate. Let me just start from the beginning...
There was this girl down the way who had her boyfriend spend the night at her apartment from Thursday to Tuesday. Her roommate, did not feel comfortable with him there. She went home over the weekend and came back and he was still there. She couldn't tell her roommate so she spent the next few nights at our house. One of my roommates and I felt really bad and could see what kind of a position this roommate had put this other roommate in so in order to find more information we went to our RA anonymously to find out what would happen to the roommate that was too uncomfortable to go home. We didn't give any names... it was all hypothetical. Our RA said that she could get in trouble just for knowing what was going on... we encouraged her to talk to her roommate about having him leave... but, she didn't want to start conflict... so we just left it.
A week or so later, it comes up again. This time, the girls are confronted by our RD (resident director) because she saw a guy walk up into the apartment after hours and when she sent an RA to go check on it, that apartment was the only one that didn't answer their door, even though their lights were on. The RD knew there was something fishy. She called for a meeting with the RAs. This story came up, and when our RA heard this, she had to finally speak up and say I had some girls come down to my apartment in the middle of the night asking what would happen. It was obvious then that that was who we were talking about, though at this point we had not said a word about who it was.
Our RA pulled Victoria aside the next day and said, listen I need to know their names. I need to know that we are talking about the same people. Everyone that knows and lies (whether by omition or otherwise) will get in trouble... So basically, she had to tell them.
Now, the girls who this all happened to... the apartment down the way... they flat out lied to the RD for weeks now (barely coming forth yesterday)... It got down to the point where the case had to go above our RD to her boss and her bosses boss. These girls were going to get in a lot of trouble... possible kicked out because they couldn't tell the truth. Not only that... what has really made my life a mess was that they expected everyone to lie for them and they came over here before I had even said anything accusing me of "tattling".
The girls completely forgot that it was their problem. They shouldn't have let a guy spend the night. What did they think was going to happen? I didn't even tell on them to begin with... atleast not until they were already caught by the RD of all people.
So, anyway... Monday, the RD came to three of us and said, "listen, I need you guys to come forward and write me an email explaining the details, because this girl is flat out lying to my face." Three of my four roommate had to make that descion that we wouldn't lie. And, the other one sided with them, though she would never admit it.
Here is where I am having problems. This fourth roommate has completely abandoned our apartment and our friendship... though, again, she would never admit it. She pretends that everything is ok but at the same time avoids conversations, dinners, saying simple hello or goodbyes... all of which she was well known for. I feel like she has abandoned our friendship for something that is so stupid and petty. I know that these people were her friends... but, you need to grow a backbone and some integrity one of these days.
If the RD says you are going to get in trouble for a choice that someone made... a selfish person who didn't care that it would effect everyone around her... and continued to lie about it for weeks now... why would you pick her? She's not going after your best interest... she just made you out to be a liar. She just made you out to be shady and undependable.
Overall, I'm just sick of all this avoidance. If you have a problem, lets talk about it like adults. If you are bitter with me, tell me why. I'm not even asking for you to forgive me but, atleast for the chance for an explanation. I don't that is too much to ask for, and I think that our friendship meant more than what it is being treated like now.
There isn't any more that I can say, other than that our whole house is feeling this strife. We are supposed to be sisters. If someone is growing or falling or having a hard time... we are to help each other, be there for each other... and so far that is working with my roommates... but, not this one. And, that alone, breaks my heart the most!
I'm sorry that this has been such a long blog. No one really reads this... but, I really need to just vent. I've had this bottled up in my heart for too long.
If it requires me to let go... then I will, but I really don't want to let go of a relationship that I have... one that I treasure so much... and a woman that I am so inspired by. I'm inspired by all of my roommates. They are amazing woman. We have a profound effect on each other. God truly gave us this year and has answered my prayers!
I'm done!
There was this girl down the way who had her boyfriend spend the night at her apartment from Thursday to Tuesday. Her roommate, did not feel comfortable with him there. She went home over the weekend and came back and he was still there. She couldn't tell her roommate so she spent the next few nights at our house. One of my roommates and I felt really bad and could see what kind of a position this roommate had put this other roommate in so in order to find more information we went to our RA anonymously to find out what would happen to the roommate that was too uncomfortable to go home. We didn't give any names... it was all hypothetical. Our RA said that she could get in trouble just for knowing what was going on... we encouraged her to talk to her roommate about having him leave... but, she didn't want to start conflict... so we just left it.
A week or so later, it comes up again. This time, the girls are confronted by our RD (resident director) because she saw a guy walk up into the apartment after hours and when she sent an RA to go check on it, that apartment was the only one that didn't answer their door, even though their lights were on. The RD knew there was something fishy. She called for a meeting with the RAs. This story came up, and when our RA heard this, she had to finally speak up and say I had some girls come down to my apartment in the middle of the night asking what would happen. It was obvious then that that was who we were talking about, though at this point we had not said a word about who it was.
Our RA pulled Victoria aside the next day and said, listen I need to know their names. I need to know that we are talking about the same people. Everyone that knows and lies (whether by omition or otherwise) will get in trouble... So basically, she had to tell them.
Now, the girls who this all happened to... the apartment down the way... they flat out lied to the RD for weeks now (barely coming forth yesterday)... It got down to the point where the case had to go above our RD to her boss and her bosses boss. These girls were going to get in a lot of trouble... possible kicked out because they couldn't tell the truth. Not only that... what has really made my life a mess was that they expected everyone to lie for them and they came over here before I had even said anything accusing me of "tattling".
The girls completely forgot that it was their problem. They shouldn't have let a guy spend the night. What did they think was going to happen? I didn't even tell on them to begin with... atleast not until they were already caught by the RD of all people.
So, anyway... Monday, the RD came to three of us and said, "listen, I need you guys to come forward and write me an email explaining the details, because this girl is flat out lying to my face." Three of my four roommate had to make that descion that we wouldn't lie. And, the other one sided with them, though she would never admit it.
Here is where I am having problems. This fourth roommate has completely abandoned our apartment and our friendship... though, again, she would never admit it. She pretends that everything is ok but at the same time avoids conversations, dinners, saying simple hello or goodbyes... all of which she was well known for. I feel like she has abandoned our friendship for something that is so stupid and petty. I know that these people were her friends... but, you need to grow a backbone and some integrity one of these days.
If the RD says you are going to get in trouble for a choice that someone made... a selfish person who didn't care that it would effect everyone around her... and continued to lie about it for weeks now... why would you pick her? She's not going after your best interest... she just made you out to be a liar. She just made you out to be shady and undependable.
Overall, I'm just sick of all this avoidance. If you have a problem, lets talk about it like adults. If you are bitter with me, tell me why. I'm not even asking for you to forgive me but, atleast for the chance for an explanation. I don't that is too much to ask for, and I think that our friendship meant more than what it is being treated like now.
There isn't any more that I can say, other than that our whole house is feeling this strife. We are supposed to be sisters. If someone is growing or falling or having a hard time... we are to help each other, be there for each other... and so far that is working with my roommates... but, not this one. And, that alone, breaks my heart the most!
I'm sorry that this has been such a long blog. No one really reads this... but, I really need to just vent. I've had this bottled up in my heart for too long.
If it requires me to let go... then I will, but I really don't want to let go of a relationship that I have... one that I treasure so much... and a woman that I am so inspired by. I'm inspired by all of my roommates. They are amazing woman. We have a profound effect on each other. God truly gave us this year and has answered my prayers!
I'm done!
Friday, November 10, 2006
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
"Lately I'm alright
And lately I'm not scared
I've figured out
That what you do to me feels like
I'm floating on air
I don't need to know right now
All I know is I believe
In the very thing that got us here
And now I can't leave"
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I have wedding fever... Its not that far away... I think I'm going to start my wedding notebook soon! Things are going so great! I'm so freaking happy!
And lately I'm not scared
I've figured out
That what you do to me feels like
I'm floating on air
I don't need to know right now
All I know is I believe
In the very thing that got us here
And now I can't leave"
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I have wedding fever... Its not that far away... I think I'm going to start my wedding notebook soon! Things are going so great! I'm so freaking happy!
Monday, November 06, 2006
break it down and build it up
Everytime we turn a corner, we have to push through the last difficult stretch. I love talking about my future with Erick. I have a future with him!! yay!
Its not that far away...
We've talked about everything... right down to where we are going to live and everything else... our kids are going to be amazing and smart. We are going to be stricted with them but, loving and compassionate.
I can't wait to start my life as a married couple... to have a house and to be with each other. I'm so excited because college is everything its cracked up to be. I've met the friends that I want to spend the rest of my life with... the friends I want to raise my kids with their kids. The friends I want to live next door to and come over and watch general hospital with when we are both pregnant!
I can't wait to have a cute little Quentin or Ivy or whatever other name Erick and I love!!
I love him... :) we will be engaged in like a year... can you believe it?
Its not that far away...
We've talked about everything... right down to where we are going to live and everything else... our kids are going to be amazing and smart. We are going to be stricted with them but, loving and compassionate.
I can't wait to start my life as a married couple... to have a house and to be with each other. I'm so excited because college is everything its cracked up to be. I've met the friends that I want to spend the rest of my life with... the friends I want to raise my kids with their kids. The friends I want to live next door to and come over and watch general hospital with when we are both pregnant!
I can't wait to have a cute little Quentin or Ivy or whatever other name Erick and I love!!
I love him... :) we will be engaged in like a year... can you believe it?
Sunday, November 05, 2006
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