Just started reading a chapter a day of this book. I know you all have heard of it. Its been making me think lately. Most of it was stuff I already knew... but, I guess I chose not to focus on. Why am I so unhappy right now? Its because I have no purpose... I'm running but I don't know why. I'm searching for the next step in my life, but I'm doing it in a very human way. I'm doing it alone.
I'm discontent. I've spent the last 20 years fighting my way through school. That was probably my main goal. I focused on the short term. Then after that, my goal was to look for a job/career. Now that I'm working full-time at a great job, what is next?
And, on top of that, how am I serving God right now? I try to be light. Most people know I'm a christian at my work. Its nice because I have a very clean slate there. They only problem is that I'm being held back by fear. I'm shy around people I don't know. Its hard for me to talk to people that I see all the time about things that are important to me... how can I do that with strangers?
Its hard for me to let my friends in to my sometimes dark world... how can even think about doing that with people I don't know know at all.
Either way, I know that God is going to work wonders in me. I'm very hopeful. I know that I am supposed to be in this place. I just need to let go of control and let him tell me why.
Until next time...
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