Roommates Part 2

I'm having kind of a sad summer. I'm still really let down about them. I don't know why I care so much. I guess it hurt really bad to be let go. They were so willing to work for people over seas or even for the big names on campus, but no one cared that I was having a hard time. My own roommate yelled at me when I had a bad day. I wonder why I was crying? I wonder what started my argument with Erick... It was because I found out that they were all living together and I was living on my own.
It just hurt that my roommate was so involved in being independent and her own person that she forgot some of the quiet, no-name people around her.
I need to really keep reminding myself to just pray about the situation. Who cares if Amy didn't care? I shouldn't. I need to remind myself how much better I will be next year. Next year, I'm not going to be praying for my roommate to be someone like me but more someone who I can learn from and someone who will learn from me. I know I'm not always around but, I sure as heck wanted to be, and I would have been if I was more included. If I wasn't sitting there staring aimlessly at the walls while the people around me made plans without me.
And, again, I'm being bitter. I'm trying not to be. I'm trying to remember that God has perfect friends set out for me. Ones that are going to be there for me and ones that I can be there for. Ones that will let me in.
It will happen. I know it! I must have faith! No matter how much energy it takes!