Hero

Sometimes I think that I hold my hero and to great of a standard. I was let down yesterday. It made me really sad to think that I have my eyes set on someone who is far from my values then I could have ever thought possible!
I've been thinking, have I let my reputation slip? Do people ignore the fact that i'm a christian these days because I act too much like everyone else? I really need to get on the ball. Its hard to think that ya we have the right to do basically whatever we want, but we need to consider others and most importantly how we are representing the kingdom? How does my freedom to drink represent Christ in a possitive manner? I'm not sure that it does when there are so many bad ideas that come with it.
Mostly, I'm thinking I just need to be considerate of who I am around. I'm not sure that it is right for me to have a drink with my family any more, no matter how fun it might be. I can't let my once a week hang out be clouded by a bunch of regrets and conversations I don't completely feel comfortable hearing.
And, what really brought me to write this is the realization that I cannot hold people to my own values. I'm not supporting illegal behavior or consistant sinning... but, I can't expect them to do something that I have chosen to do. I can only pray and hope that by my example things will emerge better.
So... ya... I had a good day and yet a bad day yesterday.... excuse me for having no interest in smoking (whether it be illegal or not)... excuse me if I have no interest in telling drunk stories and taking shots of petron with the sole purpose of getting hammered.
I am not you. And, I should probably be representing that better. I'm imperfect... but, atleast I try