thank you and goodnight

I think all of my life I have struggled with myself and who I am. It is hard sometimes when I feel that I'm so broken and unrepairable. People don't know how shattered I am inside sometimes. Its my fault that I have become like this.
It is because of this that I cling to people. When you are my best friend... you really are my best friend. I seriously think about you all day. I wonder how you are doing and if you are OK. When you are sad, I really am sad with you. I cry with you. I'd do anything to help you. It is a self-sacrificing love that I have for you. And, because of all of this, it really hurts me to find that it is so casual to you to think that you will pick up shop when you find a girlfriend.
In the exact opposite, I can't allow myself become greatly attached to you and everything you are if you are so quick to throw it all away for a girl. Its freaking ridiculous. I recognize that we are not dating any more... you don't owe me anything. But, I would just want a little consideration. How can you spend the last 3 months with us knowing that its only temporary.
And, any way, it is because of this that I have decided to detach myself emotionally from you... no more good ole times and no more endless nights. It pains me to know that I love you with all of my heart but that just isn't good enough for you.
Thank you and goodnight :)